centripetal farce

round and round we go,
where we stop (die)
nobody knows.

give in to the glory of a little can of Spam,
killing a life of monkey's hope.

I dial a dream,
while sitting next to Medusa,
nor swayed by cruel intention
so desperate to remember your name.

the sure burn of uncertain fire,
but how else do you see love?

legends speak of primordial gods 
who shaped the world in its early days,
but the artist’s painting captures more essence 
than the forest of Heaven untouched by human hands.

At arms' instinct taught war,
to recall what you hate most
inside a dream inside of hope as a joke.


eustress

poetize positive problems...

heading to Atlanta this weekend,
and then to Orlando the following weekend.

all involves good things, 
like cold plunges and concerts,
cookies and playoff basketball,
but I am the worried cunt,
always asking what if?

my resilience to happiness
is still a hurdle.


Name this poem whatever you want!

You don't need a helicopter crash. 
to live in a perfume adverb.

Florida fucks with my head.
it's not often we get a second chance. 

Singing karaoke while the sky is falling.
we only get to go round life's carousel once. 

I like your t-shirt. 
It makes my heart hurt. 

Never felt so confident. 
In nothing at all. 


Cake

I am so sorry
for hurting you.


Back then,
I simply wanted it all.


Now all I want
is time and cake.


a hat on top of a hat

I wear a Louisville hat for you,
and when people ask about it
I quote Bruce Springsteen
and keep the convo moving. 

It's from the 1986 basketball championship team,
but it makes me feel closer to you, Kendra Jean.

I know it's stupid but it's true,
and I can only control 
what I can control,
like the hat on my head. 


The night John Prine went to Heaven I woke up around 3 in the morning and wrote this poem right quick

I wonder if
I am the one
who got away
for someone?


Chaos Logic

I wish manatees flew
and were as bountiful as birds,
making the world 
a little weirder. 

Our future flying cars
will navigate no-wake zones
in the air to dodge
the soaring sea cows,
who are still slow and curious. 

And there goes 
my last alibi
of dreaming 
just to dream. 


The used-to-be-tortured-but-now-super-satisfied poets department

Bloodwork,
then to the diner
for coffee
and eggs
and pancakes
and biscuits and gravy,
cuz I am hungry
and I have less blood
and I have been working so hard
on my health and fitness
since January 3rd
so I am treating myself. 

I am thrilled
to just read my book
at the bar-top,
and enjoy a slow morning,
that even when the cops are called
on someone fighting
in the parking lot,
I don't care,
as long as I can chat about Israel
with the old guy next to me
who turns out to be a pastor from Miami. 

The busboy interrupts 
to talk about love,
and I agree that
hate takes a lot of work,
and I am so happy
in this poetic moment
that most people 
wouldn't give a shit about,
but I add more butter
to my pancakes,
and blow everyone's mind
when I quote Proverbs 10:21:
The lips of the righteous feed many, 
but fools die for lack of sense.

I pay the waitress,
who didn't say much,
and give her a big tip,
because an extra $20 to me
compared to what it means to her 
on a Friday morning shift
where people fight in the parking lot
and satisfied poets leave
with sugar and caffeine 
in their veins,
ready to write the wrongs
of the whole world
before noon. 

Peefing outside the gym (but not going in) with The Greeting Committee!

ceramicist

In cupboards, we crawl again,

along the edges of chipped tea cups

with old foes never forgotten,

and new friends not yet rotten.


Don't be stupid after easter,

turn and burn and bang out 

poverty poems about believing

in seamless dreams of the future.


Let's joke about yesterday,

and never double dare tomorrow,

expel everything you ever thought,

New York feels so cold even when it is hot.



Bacon and spray paint > rising and grinding

From Caitlin Clark to Orlando Magic,
Sunday Afternoons are for basketball.

A belly full of late breakfast of bacon,
Finger tips black and red of spray paint.

I collect on the couch to catch up
on reading and hoops.

Been a long day of writing
And editing in intervals.

Between being a dad
And living a life.

Rising and grinding isn’t always
Athletes and asshole Gary V wannabes.

Sometimes rising and grinding is
Bacon and spray paint.

Then driving your kid to acting
And writing dialogue in the parking lot.


Black Violin

A cowboy hat covered in Christmas lights.
An invisible violin coming from somewhere out of sight.
A rainbow at night. 

Reading Kafka's diaries by the lake.
Tonia unsent a message.

Shirt on the floor no more.
Radiohead song solidarity. 
The third line of this stupid stanza. 

The rose holds me.
Thorns dug deep.


never skip the embodied reference to the foundations that help me believe

I am going to make a country album one day,
but it will be all about the neighborhood of Yorkville in Manhattan,
and be drenched in airport beers and the fears of a 30 year old man
who has a plan but doesn't know how to...

All these LinkedIn losers and Instagram idiots
talk about and talk to creatives who have sold a boat load
of books or bullshit about this or that, 
but they never talk about the upcoming creative
who is carving their art in trees in Central Park
or working three jobs to pay rent and keep creating. 

I used to adhere to made-up deadlines because I thought I was going to die,
but now I don't do that dance because I am afraid to die,
like once something is done or on the verge of attention,
I will croak and it will be part of Hashem's joke. 


Poem

I am an acolyte of bargain orange juice 
and elbow blood on skate pavement, 
helming my soundtrack of indie-pop orchestra, 
telling tall tales of fine gone misadventure 
full of absurdist bon mots and comic non sequiturs.


Unsung cardigans from 90s films worn by the artsy dudes experiencing unrequited love

I based my whole life off of
lovable losers in film and tv,
who wear drooping cardigans
and read philosophy books. 

AJ from Empire Records,
and Ben Affleck's character 
in Chasing Amy,
both artists with big dumb hearts
and secretly in love
with a beautiful brunette.

What's his toes in
My So Called Life,
but most Ethan Hawke
in Reality Bites.

And here I am,
being all artsy and shit,
writing poetry,
wearing a cardigan,
listening to Mazzy Star,
embracing my circular nostalgic journey. 


solidtude rain friday night

Angeles by Elliot Smith
an improvised poem and a soda pop.

Thinking about pancakes tomorrow, 
and putting too much butter because I can.

A Bukowski book pulled from the kitchen,
flipped to a random page that is perfect...

“and when nobody wakes you up in the morning, 
and when nobody waits for you at night, 
and when you can do whatever you want. 
what do you call it, freedom or loneliness?”

How long ago did the song end?
How long ago did the silence begin?


IDK 😓

Spilled keto ice cream on the piano.
Paused the Vampire Weekend.
To concentrate on cleaning up the keys. 

I didn't check your blog all day yesterland. 
But I did today, because as my luck would have it.
That's when you would've unblocked the borrowed muse.

Feels like my halah guy was kinda brand new today.
Didn't tell me to take a soda. 
Mohammed probably has his own shit going on. 

It's blocked today, which means I most likely 
Missed a perfect poem about the human condition.
Love and loss are now just forgetting to remember.

This is like a meta Elizabeth Hardwick story.
Where a young woman goes from Kentucky to New York.
Discovers the world of difference within her.

On this episode of Bothering the band, we eat ribs in the bathroom with punk rockers Tsunami Bomb!

Adrift, drowning, drying, trying, and dying

We are connected
Like castaways
From other lives.

Losing heavily
Each day gone
But closer to the next.

Us ugly morons
In the universe
Are but ants in a puddle.

Assigning meaning,
Our intelligence
is artificial.

It’s all very interesting,
The tides that quench us
Are the same that drowns us.

What questions answer
Our souls and
What moons do we follow?


I don't care about the eclipse

Let the moon veil itself in shade,
while I revel in the my life on earth,
for in my daydreams, for what they are worth,
a timeless terrestrial chaos that won't degrade.

Eclipses come and eclipses go,
yet steadfast shines all that is below,
so why fret over a fleeting show,
when life down here whispers tales we know?

In shadows deep, my doldrums still creep,
a daily dance, a night's grand might,
but I, unmoved by darkness in steep,
the stars gaze upon our own emitted eternal light.


I hate small talk.

I wanna talk atoms. death. aliens. sex. the meaning of life. that feeling when someone you love txts u. Time travel. what morbin shit makes you laugh. Blackwell GPU architecture. ur childhood. what keeps u up at night. I like people with depth. i dont want to know "whats up" or anything to do with real estate 😜


Would you tell Picasso to sell his guitars?

skipped the poetry show tonight,
needed some me time.
bought a Louisville hat,
just for the fuck of it. 

the microwave is doing that thing 
where I put something in it for fifteen minutes 
and it’s still cold,
but then if I nuke it again for 20 seconds,
and it's like lava.

I’m so glad the Star Wars emo nerd subculture exists.
I’m so glad that right now somewhere 
a group of middle aged men are playing pick-up basketball
as I reverse blow on this Bagel Bite in my mouth.

going from Modern Baseball to Ariana Grande,
everything reminds me of the past,
but nothing reminds of the future,
and I can ask a philosopher about love
or a cardiologist about heartbreak. 

be the leader or be led,
but find a balance between both those things
where you can just create and disappear
into the day and it's okay.

I am a vulnerable bull
apologizing for being in a China shop.
I see the eyes of the Buddha
telling me to pick who I fail for
and simply follow through.